Cool Crisp October





 Hello Beautiful People,


As the first week of October comes to an end, I find myself looking back at the events of the past few weeks. My family and I have had a remarkably stressful few weeks. Unfortunately, we were forced to make a very difficult decision, and the worst thing was the way it was presented to us was far from pleasant.

In a delicate situation, there was no compassion, no sympathy, no warmth. No taking into consideration what we were able to do.

Thankfully, my sisters and I managed to remain relatively calm and bail money was not needed. If any of you know my family, we are the most stubborn people possible. Do not tell us we cannot do something because we will find a way to do it. In this situation we needed to act fast, and we agreed on a solution that was the least horrible of all of our horrible options presented to us.

I hope and pray to never be so dead behind the eyes to lose my compassion, my belief in brighter days to come. Positive intentions bring positive outcomes. I came to the realization that I was allowing my light to slowly fade. I have been off work for so long; I underwent surgery with the anticipation of being pain-free and able to work again. I looked forward to being able to play with my granddaughters, take them for walks or to the beach or trips. All of these dreams have not realized themselves, and I realized I am bitter. I am angry and I am disappointed. After these last couple of weeks, however, I refuse to be part of the cold mechanism that our society is casting itself into. I do not want to EVER treat others the way we were treated. I will always try to find a way to be kind and understanding and do things that make me happy with the people who make me happy!

I know it is early, but this is a reflection of what I expect of myself for the upcoming Holiday Season. It is normally a stressful time—preparations, work, gifts, lack of money for said gifts, and on and on. Not this year. This year I will spend it in a state of gratitude and love.

With Ink Stained Fingers and Heartfelt Thanks,

Fernanda

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